ive been really crabby lately, and Im not sure why. I think probably its school and how much time I spend there, though I know I am so lucky to be doing what I am doing and that I am learning so much. its just…Im missing the happy tan Mira who went to the beach every day and had such positive energy. I am constantly putting out fires now and juggling so much work, trying so hard not to drop the ball on one thing or another. Also I am sort of seeing this dude which I was really excited about (as usual), but (as usual) it seems like its sort of fizzling out. I’m kind of over dudes who don’t effort. I think it’s easier  to be alone than to think about the fact that you have someone who isn’t calling you. right now I am waiting for the exterminatior. turns out my lovely new appartment has a rat. How do I know? OH, thats right, I FUCKING SAW IT run across the kitchen last night. The sound. The sound its feet made on the floor. Indescribable. wants to go to the brooklyn flea. Wants to bake a pie with organic apples. Wants to rub my soul mate’s tummy and get married and have a baby and knit it little booties in a chair by the fire escape with light coming through the window. God, Im pathetic. going to take a shower and then design a greek tragedy.